Agoraphobia

                   Agoraphobia (ag-ra-phobia)

In 2008 I was miss diagnosed with Claustrophobia. I knew at the time it was stupid and a second opinion agreed it was a stupid diagnoses, but it planted a seed in my head that grew into a massive.oak tree.  

I became scared of standing still and then became scared of sitting still, no matter how much I told myself it was a stupid/missed diagnoses I couldn't stop myself.

I became scared the most of not knowing my escape route, or not being able to leave when I wanted to and being too hot, so feeling trapped.

This lead to about 13 years of severe panic attacks and having to force myself to do many things, most things I cancelled. And I even ruined Lilia's 16th birthday because of it (well Covid did but I didn't help matters).

I still have anxiety over this and occassional mild panic attacks but I am doing much better 

The reason I stumbled across Agoraphobia is because Lilia and I have been watching High School Musical and I googled the actors to see what they are doing now. At first I thought Zac Efron was scared of spiders, which was weird living in Australia, but googling Agoraphobia, he is scared of not having an escape route and feeling trapped. One article describes it exactly how I have described it above.

I didn't have anything until this GP diagnosed Claustrophobia, but were I thought he had created Claustrophobia, I now think it may have created Agoraphobia, as it fits more.

Either way I am healing and through NLP, everytime I see this GP I see him as a clown, big shoes, red nose and orange curly hair.  

In fairness to him he did diagnose me with ME/CFS and get me to the clinic and formally diagnosed in 2 months. Which usually takes 2.5 - 8 years, so he has redeemed himself.