As you may know I have identified as Autistic for a long time and so when I got diagnosed with Mild ASD on Monday it wasn't a surprise.
However I was also diagnosed with sever ADHD and that has floored me, I am totally in shock. I'm not upset about it just so shocked. I have never resonated with it, thought about it or been interested in it. It's a form of denial and my sub-conscious way of protecting me. I didn't need protecting from ASD.
I have the female version (some males have this version and some females have the male version) and this is the boring type, so little is known about it. The Male version interests the media because it holds more 'horror story', it's more appealing to the audience.
Because I had booked an asd assessment the paperwork will say Mild ASD with Severe ADHD Symptoms and I won't be able to get the medication the psychiatrist stresses I need. He is recommending that the GP puts me on the waiting list for a NHS assessment, because it's not worth me paying out for a private one just to get expensive monthly costly medication. I can if I want to though and he will do it, so it won't be a different outcome. The paperwork then will say Severe ADHD with Mild Autism. And Meds will be prescribed.
In the mean time (between 5-8 years wait) I can look at supplements, exercise, stress reduction, therapy, sleep and diet (everything I am doing for pre-diabetes anyway). It maybe that I decide not to go on the meds, which will be against his strong advice (his words not mine) but that is my choice.
At least I have two advantages over others 1) I have ASD which acts as a calmer for HD and 2) I am training to be a Counsellor and can therapy myself (but others are available).
The only confusing thing is he questions (not denys) ME/CFS, as a lot of the symptoms are the same and unmedicated ADHD is exhausting, hence Chronic Fatigue. I am to look at my symptoms closely and see if any are not ADHD related. But he said he wouldn't disallow the diagnoses of ME but just to be aware.
At work, we get points via a benefit scheme called Perkbox. With my points, I got this defusrer, yesterday, so effectively a present from the wonderful charity I work for. I bought some Vetiver to defuse in it. Vetiver is meant to be the best essential oil for ADHD. If you do not have that, Cederwood is a close alternative. It's hard to see the mist, but it is there.
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